I was raised in a Christian home despite the fact they we didn’t go to church often. My dad thought that you didn’t need to go to church all of the time to worship God. My siblings and I were taught the importance of prayer and of reading the Bible. Sadly, I never really studied the Bible. As I got older I began working. I wasn’t able to attend church as I should have. I still had a prayerful relationship with God and went to him for help and guidance all the time.
Not long after my husband and I began dating we started talking about marriage. We both agreed that we wanted our children to be raised with the importance of going to church. He was a member of the Mormon Church, at the time he was inactive. We went to my church first, he wasn’t really happy with it, so we went to his church a few times. The people at the Mormon Church were very welcoming. I did like the church, but I wasn’t sure I wanted to become a member. At the same time I was concerned that if I didn’t go to his church my children would never be brought up in a Christian home. So I had the discussions, which I found very intimidating, the missionaries kept asking me “What do you think about that?” or “How do you feel about this?” Despite my apprehensions I was baptized, I thought that after I was member for awhile things would start to make more sense. There were many things about the Mormon doctrine that didn’t feel right to me. I couldn’t put my finger just what it was that bothered me. I understand now that I wasn’t saved, I wasn’t walking with the Lord, or I never would have joined the church.
After being a member of the church for one year I was able to go to the temple. That didn’t help sooth my concerns, it only added to them. I have a couple experiences in the temple that were upsetting and scary to me. I never spoke of these things to a member of the church; I didn’t think they would believe me. I always heard others talk about the wonderful experiences they had. They would say things like “I know that they accepted the work I did for them”, or that they knew their family member was there with them in the temple. It wasn’t until after I got out of the church, and spoke to others who had left, that I found out I wasn’t the only one who had creepy things happen to them in the LDS temple.
Most LDS people would be asking me about now, why didn’t you talk to your bishop, or a church leader about your concerns? You know what? I did talk to them, I was given the same standard, recycled reply, “Pray about it, Fast, Read the Book of Mormon”, and my personal favorite “I know this church is true.” I did those things I was told to do. When I was still unsure about the church, I was told that there are things that we won’t understand in this life; we just have to take it on faith. Well, I thought that the LDS church had the answer for all those questions? Isn’t that what they pride themselves on?
For 13yrs we were an active, temple worthy couple. I tried to push back all the doubt and questions in my mind. I thought that I was in a Christian church even though there were things that didn’t match up with the Bible. At the end of 2006 I couldn’t keep it up. I knew there wasn’t something right about the church but I was afraid to say anything. My husband watched a program on TV about the Masons. It showed what goes on in the
As I write my testimony I think back to all those Fast and Testimony meetings I sat in on as a church member. All of their testimonies were about the church. They talked about their callings, the temple, how great the Bishop is and let’s not forget Joseph Smith or the current prophet. None it this is about Jesus. Recently I came across a verse in Luke (6:45) the last line says “of the abundance of his heart his mouth speaketh”. This verse describes the LDS testimony to a T. Their hearts aren’t focused on Jesus, but on the church. Jesus is somewhere in the background. They are always the first to say that they are Christians and point out the “real name of their church” emphasizing “Jesus Christ” with their voice. I wonder now, if they believe so much in Jesus why is their testimonies filled with praises to their prophets, church leaders and other aspects to their religion?
My last few weeks in Mormonism was heartbreaking for me. I just didn’t what to be there any more knowing what I knew about the church. One day I was sitting in on a Relief Society meeting for the leaders; I was the compassionate service leader. I remember feeling very apprehensive, but I was there out of duty to my calling. Inside I was a bundle of nerves, and I felt awful being in that building. By then I was learning how far away the church was from the Biblical Jesus. That was the last church meeting I attended.
We have been out of the church now for all most eight months. Our spiritual growth has been tremendous. When I go to church now I am learning from God’s Word, not from some ones testimony or a church manual. Before I never could say that I was saved. Mormons don’t say that they are saved. I believed that I had to work my way to heaven. “Through good works” I would receive exaltation and eternal life. If we had to work our way to Heaven Jesus didn’t have to come, take upon our sins and die on the cross for us. Now I know through God’s Word that I will have eternal life, because I have been born-again, and have accepted Jesus as my savior. Now I am making a real effort to learn, and understand the Bible. I hope to help other people understand what Mormonism is all about. I want them to come to the Jesus of the Bible, and know that they can achieve the peace and hope that he gives freely.