I discovered your site yesterday and I’ve read some of the articles. I’m at work, so I will keep this short. I just wanted to give you a quick summary of how I was saved. In July of 2012 I was feeling suicidal. Everything that I had ever done wrong as well as everything others had done wrong to me seemed to all come to a point at once. I felt worthless. I had a couple of customers talking about suicide as well, which didn’t help my cause. I decided then that I was going to end it. I bought some over the counter sleeping pills and combined them with my anti-depressants (about 30 or so) and took them all together. I couldn’t breath and I got scared and had my wife drive me to the hospital. I was there 3 days. I started praying asking God to help me.
About 2 weeks later, I met a Christian woman at work named _____. ______ began to witness to me. Later on, I found out that she felt drawn to me by God. ______ helped me get into a 12-step program for codependency and there I started learing about a Higher Power. Through ______ and through CoDA meetings, I determined that their view of a Higher Power and my Mormon view were in conflict with one another.
______ invited me to read my Bible and for the first time it started making sense. About six month later, I told her I was ready to leave the LDS church and asked her where a good church to attend was. She pointed me to ______ where ______ is the campus Pastor. I e-mailed _____ after attending service on ______ and he called me the next day.
_____ and I spoke for around an hour. ____ invited me to surrender to Christ and accept him into my life. He explained why Mormonism is at conflict with traditional Christianity. I prayed. I don’t remember everything I said in that prayer, but I remember surrendering to Christ. I remember saying that the Mormon Christ is not the Christ of the Bible.
The next day, I woke up and felt clean. I felt something like I’d never felt before. I felt an energy come over me. This didn’t go away for over a month. I asked Pastor _____ about it and he said that I should not trust my feelings, but prove everything with the Bible. I told him, I know what the Bible is saying is true. He said that he didn’t discount my feelings, and he said it was Heavenly Father talking to me. He simply said that I should not trust my feelings alone.
I told _____ about this and she said that it was genuine of _____ to do this because he didn’t use my feelings to manipulate me into following him. ______ and I were good friends and it caused problems with my wife. _____ suggested ______ and I part ways, so we did. We never talk now, which hurts, but it’s for the best.
on June 9, 2013, I was baptized as a Christian. I’ve only missed 3 days of church since and I’m involved in a weekly Bible study. The energy I felt comes and goes. My wife and six kids (who live at home, I have 8) are still LDS but slowing coming around.
I feel right now, if I were to lose everything else, including my family, that I would still have Christ. I am saved and I feel at peace right now as I write these words to you. I feel better now that I left the LDS church. I still get depressed and anxious, I have PTSD. But it’s easier to cope with now. I don’t beat myself up now when I make mistakes or for the mistakes I’ve made in the past.
I hope that this story will help others who are contemplating leaving Mormonism. I simply ask that you omit names of people and of my church or change them if you reprint this. I don’t want to embarrass ______ or _____ and if you use my name, people who know my story will know of whom I talk.
One last thing. I would like for my wife and ______ to be friends one day. _____ was a very good influence on me. I ask please that you pray that God can work this miracle if it’s His will. I ask please that you pray for my family to come to know the true Christ of the Bible.
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